Well here we are on day four of the lovely bed rest! I've not lost my mind just yet and seem to be holding up mentally pretty well. Life on bed rest isn't the easiest and I'm finding myself having a hard time sticking to it. I want so bad to just lay here and let this baby use every once of my body and energy to grow bigger and stronger, but I'm also a mother of three other energy filled children and a kinda needy husband. For years I've been the center spoke of the wheel so taking me out of the daily life makes everything difficult.
This whole thing is very much a roller costar! My moods change from one hour to the next. I'm lost on what to do with all the emotions that come with this. Even just trying to write this is showing just how messy my thoughts are. I feel like I can't form a single thought. lol
I've made a few lists of things I need to get done or need to buy before baby that have helped my need to nest. Now resisting the urge to get up and complete those lists seem to be very changeling. For some reason I'm having such a hard time taking bed rest at home serious. I in no way, shape, or form want to do anything to help encourage the delivery of this baby! I get sooo mad at myself for not staying in bed/couch all day. Tonight I will do some snooping around and hope to find a good bed rest blog or community. I just want some support.
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