Superbowling Bed Rest aka Day 4

Well here we are on day four of the lovely bed rest! I've not lost my mind just yet and seem to be holding up mentally pretty well. Life on bed rest isn't the easiest and I'm finding myself having a hard time sticking to it. I want so bad to just lay here and let this baby use every once of my body and energy to grow bigger and stronger, but I'm also a mother of three other energy filled children and a kinda needy husband. For years I've been the center spoke of the wheel so taking me out of the daily life makes everything difficult.

This whole thing is very much a roller costar! My moods change from one hour to the next. I'm lost on what to do with all the emotions that come with this. Even just trying to write this is showing just how messy my thoughts are. I feel like I can't form a single thought. lol

I've made a few lists of things I need to get done or need to buy before baby that have helped my need to nest. Now resisting the urge to get up and complete those lists seem to be very changeling. For some reason I'm having such a hard time taking bed rest at home serious. I in no way, shape, or form want to do anything to help encourage the delivery of this baby! I get sooo mad at myself for not staying in bed/couch all day. Tonight I will do some snooping around and hope to find a good bed rest blog or community. I just want some support.

Hi I'm Brittni and my cervix sucks

Well I can now say with all the complications that have come up with my fourth(current) pregnancy, that  with a very heavy heart we have decided that my body can no longer carry any more children. Its been a deep discussion many time, mostly followed by tears, since I think in a perfect world we would have around 6 kids probably. However, we don't want to continue to gamble and put our family in a position that we end our baby making years in tragedy or turmoil. I know compared to many other women's pregnancy our are a walk in the park and we are extremely grateful for that. With that said sometimes you have to say okay we're blessed beyond our original infertility dreams and lets be thankful for the things we have and lets stop here.

i guess it would be silly to say I'm surprised with the complications that have started to arise, but with Rosalie's(baby#3) pregnancy being so uneventful with no bed rest and carrying to 39.4 Weeks we thought maybe Bentley's prematurity was a fluke, as did the doctors. We never did find a exact reason why I was dilated to 4cm, 50% thinned, with a bulging bag at only 25.5 weeks into his pregnancy. I'm very pleased to have been able to continue to carry him to 33 weeks gestation with the help of hellacious hospital bed res. We consulted numerous doctors before every conceive any children after his birth. All concurred that his complications were most likely rare and my risk of another preemie just slightly higher.

So when we conceived our next child and carried her to full term we thought for sure we were in the clear to safely expand our family to the size our hearts desired. Tho this time around I've truly learned the truth behind the saying that "No two pregnancies are ever exactly the same!!!" I've taken all the same precautions i did with pregnancy with Rose, probably even more so! Sadly its not made a huge impact. Don't get me wrong I am waaaaay better off now than I ever was with Bentley, but everything has now lead to strict bed rest at home. Yea like an OCD mother of 3 and bed rest are BEST of matches in the world. God is so soooo funny. lol I'm really learning and listen to his lesson tho.